tHe DeViL anD anGel

2012-01-19T03:13:00.002+13:00

LOL
I'm so bored staying at home
>.<
Can anybody teach me guitar?
=D

2012-01-03T04:38:00.002+13:00

I am just wondering who is reading my boring blog
haha
it's pretty surprise to see people are still around
=P

Money!

2011-12-29T14:51:00.001+13:00

HAH~~~~~~
Who says money can't buy happiness??
=D

2011-12-24T07:36:00.001+13:00

You rather us being cold than not apologize
rather me taking all the pain than just saying a word sorry

It's killing me

anything and then nothing

2011-12-22T03:41:00.002+13:00

every time you are mad about anything
which i think it is nothing
i seem like nothing to you

2011-12-21T13:05:00.001+13:00

该放弃的时候
我再也不会强求了

2011-12-21T02:48:00.000+13:00

it hurts when i think of you

Time to make decision again!

2011-12-03T15:26:00.002+13:00

Leaving New Zealand in a week
head to Sydney for one day trip and then to Singapore
Compare to the last trip back to Malaysia
my luggage is WAY more lighter
no more souvenir no more honey no more chocolate no more lotion LOL
It's all my clothes left!
and I bet my luggage on the trip back to NZ will be overweight again
I was thinking about this university thing
yea this annoying choices
I got so many prospectus book from the uni
i bet it will take me a while to finish it
sigh
time to make decision again!

heart breaking

2011-11-17T23:29:00.002+13:00

what is love to you
i am getting disappointed to you
i mean to us

does it really mean something
the past
or they are just a dream for you
it's heart breaking baby
it is heart, breaking..

Melted heart

2011-11-09T01:50:00.005+13:00

Looking over the photos of me and Clifton again
miss our smile

this photo was taken on our first actual date
he brought me to a nice restaurant with nice view
nice food too of course
we didn't talk much but keep smiling at each other
the days we always got sore face
lol
hahaha
i miss it
i miss you

Going well

2011-11-07T20:07:00.003+13:00

Ehhem
Just to make it clear that me and Clifton are fine
we are still together but going through a hard time
we still care about each other
and we both hope it will keep going well too
he is my personal shelter
my personal teddy bear
i love him

爱的人

2011-11-06T18:06:00.002+13:00

很多时候就算多辛苦只要你爱的人一直支持你相信你
其实真的没什么大不了的

这个人一直守护着你
爱着你
而你
一直相信的这一个人
这一个天塌下来帮你顶的人
如果有一天突然消失了
应该怎么做？
那种撕心裂肺的痛
要怎么把它忘了

我知道不会活不下去
也不会伤心一辈子
可是那种痛
那种可以感觉得到的心痛
是永远不会忘记的

我们真的不能期望太多
期望越高失望越大
越是抓得紧
越是容易消失

什么时候我才能恢复以前的笑容

Friendship!!!

2011-11-06T16:31:00.003+13:00

Sunday sunny day
we went to yamcha at the restaurant in Petone
Sam, Eason and Clifton<3
About 1 month later we won't get to have lunch together anymore
It's a bit sad
it's hard for me to say goodbye
They are like my brothers
perhaps they are the only friends I have in NZ

at some point I think Eason is like the male version of me
he knows what I think he understands me
this is why we could be best friend I guess?
he is a smart guy and taught me a lot
sometimes i even think that he is my real brother who got kidnapped
(or maybe i got kidnapped by his parents haha)
hard to believe that we won't get to see each other that often anymore
but on the other hand I am happy that he is on the way to his dream too
the thing he always dreams of
he is getting closed to them

Sam gives me a feeling like a family member
he is like a cousin
he is caring he is funny
I don't know if we can ever meet again haha
people are always unsure about the future right?
too many choices to choose from
it is a hard decision too

we spent lots of time together
I really hope that all of us will have a bright future
getting what we dream of
bad things stop coming
and most importantly friendship forever!!

Holding on

2011-11-05T13:04:00.003+13:00

Let's hold on till the end

don't give up
if you want to see how much I care
the time will show you
remember the days we hang out in the middle of the night?
it was tiring but we love doing it
mcdonald and bubble tea at 12am
fall asleep in the car until the next morning
i won't let it disappear

it is gonna be okay
I won't let my heartbreaks get into our way
please don't forget how strong your feelings towards me
we are gonna work it out

'no matter what happen next,
I am really grateful to have you in my life'
i said

Restart

2011-10-29T11:10:00.003+13:00

I start to blog again
after so long I start to blog again

Once again,
changes in my life
sometimes they just drive me crazy
I used to change my environment
friends, school, place I live...
and I think this is a change I never want to make
torturing, heartbroken

nobody understands, nobody cares
they blame on you because you are the one who walk away first
they blame on your disappointments
blame on your impatience
I try, I try not to cry
because I know once I start crying it won't stop

I won't be sad forever
I won't
you will see